You're no good

Yesterday was X'mas right? but we got 'Big Cleaning Day' instead lol~

clean up the whole office & rearranging desks & spaces... I felt like my new position wasn't that good.. I got separated from other ppl [no more chitchat] & my new co-worker got shift to another floor [bwahhhh~!] .. what a bad way to start a new year ne~ but maybe it's good too coz I get to sit infront of the fish tank~ lol gonna watch those silly gold fishes doin' silly stuffs all day long XD water is good feng-shui too~ flowing life but then again it's infront of the hall way.. gonna get very distracted by ppl coming in & out... :(

Last nite while watch X'tina concert special on TV [ol' concert :P]
my bro asked me 'do u believe that David Tao can actually chage the world?'
coz I simply making a non-stop comments about how X'tina poorly interact with her audiences a couple of year back [hopefully by the time she came to MTV Thailand she'd be better] while David wait for like... 5-6 yrs 'till he come up with a big concert & he did a wonderful job with it..

lol~ I do believe that he can change the world.. atleast he makes me look at Chinese music world in a new way.. before I thought Korean/ Japanese music was way better than Thai/Chinese music but hey Thai music got 'Bakery' to do the job [even if it's already over] & Chinese music got 'David Tao' so now I only listen more to Chinese music .. his music particularly XD so I can't wait till I get to listen to his new album next year~!!! it's definatly gonna be a good one!!!

crazy feelin' creep up before new year.. next year will be my year.. I'm turning 24 by Dec next year... full 2 circles.. very odd..I still feel like a 15 yrs ol' looking for something to pass my time & not actually focus at anything... [big 'NG' sign pop up in my head]

you're no good.. zoe ;_;

OMFG~!!

like OMFG~!!! I just passed my sad B*day... & not so bright prospect of my life is looming ahead of me this year & next year but.. I still felt very secure...very happy coz of this guy >v< like OMFG~!!!!! he make me happy all over again~!!

u gotta meet him~ he's the talented artist I've ever met.. & he melt my heart with his pure soul~ the joy of knowing him makes me grow~

enough rambling>> http://www.davidtao.com/

just go & get a taste of Taoism~!! XD it's in Mandarin so u might not understand [I don't either] but there his angelic voice to guide u everywhere so u won't get lost~ heheh XD he's totally adorable in his place~ <3 <3

Love & peace~

I need My Angel~

I see a stranger in the mirror
The expression of those eyes are so dimly
I try to smile, but in fact I just reluctantly move the bitter corners of my mouth
Who will understand my loneliness?

Like a boat drifting on the sea, I can't find the Big Dipper
Who can raise the sail to move far away from this black tide?

Angel... angel...
Hoping you are by my side
Angel... angel...
Please hold my hand firmly

Sometimes, I think nobody will understand
The pain that hiding in my heart
I'm afraid to face this world with a true heart
So I just let myself be lonelier

Alone (alone) drifting on the sea, I can't find someone to talk to
Who will give me tenderness (hold me) when I feel my heart is almost broken?

Angel... angel...
Hoping you are by my side
Angel... angel...
Do you hear that I'm calling you?

Would you please tell the exhausted and lonely me?
That you'll always wait for me?

Angel... angel...
Please stay by my side
Angel... angel...
Please don't let go my hand

Music by David Tao, lyrics by David Tao & Wah Wah, sang by David Tao in Black Tangerine album

It's my B*day today~ & I felt even more lost & alone then ever... I feel like callin' my friends but I don't seem to wanna pick up the phone & ask her if she wanna go out on my B*day & just have fun coz she got a BF... my bro voice seems to echo in the back of my mind 'What kind of friends meet once in a couple of month? no call.. no nothing?'.. & my mom suddenly musing something like 'when B*day arrive.. u getting closer to death..' She didnt meant my B*day in particular.. more about herself [eventho~ she never talk abou her own B*day] & older ppl... I get the feelin' like yeah~ my days gonna come soon.. then B*day also meant ur mom's pain.. the day she almost give herself to u... I should be grateful for her to bring me into this world.. TV show 'hugging' as a new trend or something for Thailand.. we never did that sorta things... we were suppose to be strong & not whining with our parent once we get older.. it's getting even harder when u never even said 'mom, I love you..' I only know she knows I care...

Not to seem depress or anything.. I kept thinking alot about things but I can't seem to come up with a conclusion.. just let time passed by & watch things... I'm such a pathetic lil' person huh?

listen to 'Angel' by David coz it sooth me alot~ my angel

*In My Room*

There's a world where I can go and tell my secrets to
In my room, in my room
In this world I lock out all my worries and my fears
In my room, in my room

Do my dreaming and my scheming
Lie awake and pray
Do my crying and my sighing
Laugh at yesterday

Now it's dark and I'm alone
But I won't be afraid
In my room, in my room

I luff this song ;_; by Wilson Phillips [again] they got great voices <3 <3

The dream is still Alive!

felt like writing something just to assure myself that I still got time in mah pocket.. but I know it's flying away so fast.. the end of the year is coming & u know how works always pile up at this time of year.. [I don't like that blogger couldn't use emode.. kinda make this blog darn boring XD]

nothing special.. recently, I try to help my bro out with his manga project, which makes me feel funny coz I never could accomplish even a single dojinshi in the past 2 yrs, but now I'm helping him with his comic story... I mean I don't have that much confident in my drawing & writing so how I can I know if my story will be any better? he seems to have alot of ideas in his brain that he simply doesn't show it to me much T-T well.. I wonder how this goin' to end since we let time slip passed us so much already... & the journey just begin XD

sentimental.. sentimental... & I realise my Eng ain't gonna get any better than this.. crap..

pick 'The Dream is still Alive' by wilson Phillips coz it's a good upbeat song.. I need to get socialise more but I hate socialising... XD

Goodbye is Tomorrow's Hello~

lol~ I was just fin GX~!!! Grrrrrrr I need to spit it out~!!!! nyaaaaaa I didn't hate it~ kinda like it somewhat altho I skip most part with the big-ugly villions & even teh handsome villians coz it's oh-so-boring~!!! lol~ the villians didn't even get to die~ WTF?!!! [okay I watch too much G-seed that every villians gets to face a horrible death fate XD]

the ending was oh-so-ridiculous [cant' blame them... GX got chop off, but it's already boring as it is anyway]~ a huge fighting mess then BOOM eveything over... blah~ what a Gundam way of ending-the-war-theory~ I guess it's the formula.. if we eliminate all the gundam from the beginning. the war won't happen & probably Bandai will get pissed off XD XD lol~ SUXXX capitalism~

almost forgot to mention.. I F**king HATE that narrator guy~!!!! Oooooooo~ he's f**king my brain out~!!! I'm so f**king happy they stop using his service after this XD XD

kinda disappointed a lil' that Jamil hook up with that girl,Sara XD he was suppose to stick with his buddy~the Dr. [who havn't got a name till the end] or maybe developed a relationship with his former rival. [forget his name but I think he's a cutie too <3] & GarrodxTiffa couple make me choke from sugar over dose [ughhhhhhh its tooo much..too sapppp~] /me luff luff Caris ~

last nite, meh bro show me 'Ebichu' anime.. XD XD perverted funny anime by Gainax~ lol~ was kinda funny but somehow I end up laughing just the first part coz it's kinda way too much dirty gag [I don't mind dirty gag, but it's not that amusing after 10 dirty gag coming ur way]

title for today is Tension songs 'Goodbye to me is just hello' [but actually it's literally translate 'Goodbye is just Tomorrow's Hello'] upbeat kinda song :)

*Black Tangerine*

I notice alot of ppl wearing black today. [altho I saw more ppl wearing red color XD] I'm wearing black-T myself so it's kinda strange but not bad strange :)

David Tao said before that Black is for the 'courage' to love so I guess I need alot of strength in this kinda weather... feel like snuggle up in the comforter all day & don't have to go to work XD lol~

well, my senior got into accident today :( fall from motorcycle.. I just visit her at the hospital [in my black-T.. WAiiiiiiii~ really not good] I feel very uncomfortable in there & speechless during my visit coz I dunno what to say or act.. we didn't have time to pick anything so it's kinda awkward really.. she throw up with blood & I afraid to even look at her >____<'' not to mentions I already feel bad about wearing black to visit sick ppl ;_;
I hope she get well soon.. >___<


ahhhh~ I hoping for a chance to use the title 'Black Tangerine' coz it's my fav DT's song XD so much emotions from David & I luv it <3 <3

This pic was done when I lost some one special in my life early this year :sniff: I also draw her wearing black [obsessed?].. I'm glad now she's doin' Okay.. :sniff: I miss her~!!! Winter taken all over me now & my B*day is coming!!

+Season of Loneliness+

The last leaf falls cushioned by the wind
As the snow falls upon my heart
My love’s been shelved as another memory
Oh... Till another season pass

Suddenly the trees rain forth their leaves
Why didn’t I feel the change before?
Oh... All the streets are lined with people in love
I walk alone in the embrace of night

I want to bid the past farewell
But the seasons they so quickly change
Oh...And it is so hard to stay strong
In this season of loneliness
The sea is a mirror for the bright sunshine
As love blossoms all o’er the Earth
All around excitement’s in the air
Oh I remember the madness

I look out of my window to see a withering tree
And my heart weeps for it
Oh... I now understand the feelings of those who’ve loved
How their hearts have been slowly withering

I want to bid the past farewell
But the seasons they so quickly change
Oh...And it is so hard to stay strong
In this season of loneliness

Again I’m bitten by the frosty wind
As the last bit of flame flickers weak
I flip through the album of my memories
It’s still the season of loneliness

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'Ji mo de ji jie' [Season of Loneliness] by David Tao

wanted to give credit to the translator but I forgot where I've taken from >_<'' truly sorry..

the song truly reflect my heart at the moment coz I remember listening to this song during this time last year & it just made sense now... how sad to lost the person u love & all the feelin' u treasure in ur heart got blown away..

*wandering with the moon*

ummmmmm one click of a button & my previous post went missing so I have to wrote another.. blah.. I was ranting about shitty stuffs so maybe it wasn't meant to be post anyway :(

Today is 'Loy Krathong' .. November fullmoon festival... a time to celebrate, pretty much like 'thanks giving'.. thanking the buddha & the river for supporting lives thoughout the year.. I think it's 'family' quality time.. where kids dress in traditional costumes & float the flower-resemble thingy, 'krathong' ['loy' mean floating] there's also firework & fair :) very nice event can be watch on TV XD

I never join this festival since my parent r such old-headed Chinese family XD nyaaa~ it's my dad who never anticipate in any festivals... he never takes me anywhere except the time to give respect to our ancesters grave [that's probablythe most important Chinese festival apart from newyear]

lol~anywho I should be doing some pic I meant to draw for 'Loy Krathong' festival.. well not exactly but it just happen to be drawn during the festival.. have noting to do with 'Loy Krathong' whatsoever... not so sure if I will fin it on time.. >.<

the title *wandering with the moon* is the new track from Tension's greatest hit compilation 'Story'... ;P

like *WTF"~!!

I came back coz I just update my site & I can't see it~!!!! So damn frustrating~!!! >_<

I miss writing nonsenses on this blog for no reason... actually what happen the last time I did an update was almost a year ago so now it turn into a 'memory' & I'm so full of 'memory' right now that I hope I wont break down & cry after reading coz I'm f**king miss every single things that has happen before & now I lost so much.. I can't believe anything I actually saying anymore...

I lose 'hope'... not all but most of it went down the drain.. my youth is fading & I only see gray lining in my 'future'... :(

I'm too content to be selfishly secure in my lil' hole..

like WTF!?