Only the Good die Young

it's a gloomy day today.. seriously gloomy~ there's fog in the morning & a shocking news that follow on this HOT winter's day..no wind..

We lose one of our niciest colleage.. it was sudden. it make me sad.. life is that way tho.. 'ONLY THE GOOD DIE YOUNG' i kept pondering the questions in my head 'Why him?' 'Why so soon?' 'How come?' it was so unexpected. we were all speechless.. but being Thai's it kept us worried over ghost XD lol~ it's in our nature btw.. believe & hold on to something so we can move on.. I hope it doesn't have a sad ending.. not for his family anyway.

I came home from the funeral.. [I wish it would be a Chinese one coz I kept feelin' like I could understand the actions of mourning better than Thai's but the weridest thing is even Chinese family adopt the Thai way coz it was cheaper to do so..] went to talk with my mom over the subject.. she ask how much did I donate for him.. I ans. sum then she said 'u should have given more to the poor one, they deserve so much more' How sweet of her don't u agree? [I almost thought I put too much this time but coz I'm so fond of him I feel like I have to give that much] it also link back to her dead bro back in the ol' day.. Oh how we cope with this sudden death is quite interesting & kinda like a bond for us in a way.. altho I don't like the way she thinks he only got daughter ain't good enogh for his family..[what a Chinese way of thinkin'~!! that only boy is good?] the poor girl & his widow wife.. my deepest condolence to them..

apart from that.. I hate the smell of burning incense.. everytime I went to a temple.. the smell stick into my scarp & my hair & my clothes.. that sickening feelin' follows me everywhere.. I really do hate that.. no wonder why I never fond of goin' to temple.. even the small ones... does it pollute the air? I do hope they kept it at minimal level but each years it look like it kept growing [more ppl more incense burning]... why can't we just lit the candle? it also have similar ritual meaning right? [okay it does look alot more dangerous than incense burning ^^;]