21.9.03

*Rag-on!*

I went back to play Rag-online again after stop playing for couple of months (since I got a job that is) My time limit is not over yet so I guess I'll have to use it till it's over... not that I'm addicted to RO, mind you >v< Cy-chan gonna release another RO-dojinshi next Oct & My bro got to do the project too. So I kinda like become my brother's personal manager coz he's so damn lazy to think of a story... I'm not too good with RO so gotta use some sense >_< hope it come out on time.

Ok, as of today... I met this very nice Acolyte girl in RO. She's so nice to us novice (or to me? hahaha) everytime she met me standing or sitting.. She heal me without a word >v< I'm so happy coz I 'm so poor to buy any red potions & I'm too weak to fight long.. seeing her means that RO isn 't such a bad place like what the media like to say... OK, some childish brats who like to root & jam are everywhere but there must be some kind people out there too.. coz it's an Online game & like a society.. bad & good people hanging out there together... So today I wanna contribute my thanks to that Acolyte whom I forgot her name already >_< sorwey~!!! I'm gonna become an acolyte too ^_^ so I'm gonna be good like you sister!weeee~!

Song of the Day *Angel* by David Tao (thanks for coming to save my soul, Ms Acolyte >///<.. ^v^/)

10.9.03

*Hu Die*

I found my oasis today ^v^ 'davidtao.org'a whole web dedicated to David Tao~!!
someone translate David's lyric from 'Black Tangerine' so I finally understand why that Shantou's girl said 'his song is so dark' well.. it's inspried by the 9/11 incidents so most of the song is so sad but hopeful.. I can't understand much but after I read the Eng-translation of 'Dear God' it so clear how he felt about 9/11 >_< he's so damn American! not that I mind though... I grow up to American music heck! that must be the reason why I'm so attracted to his songs though sometimes I kinda like Penny's cheerful & sweet tunes better... I've been reading through his biography & interviews... wow! he's so passionate about his music.. I never thought to find a true musician & artist like him ever~! this is so cool ^_^ I'm so glad to find him!

last sunday I went to karaoke with bunch of friends (9 altogether including me!) we sings lots of Japanese songs though I really want to sing more Chinese songs but my chinese is too poor, I can't put on a record >_< next time I'll be more prepare & I'll sing 'David's' & 'Penny's'! ha ha we end up singing the tune from 'Sailor moon' & 'Saint Seiya' that remind us how old we are to still crazy about these oldie-anime >3< still it's fun.. we got a great laugh out of it & a good time too. I even learn how to get my voice right on the microphone but it still sound crappy & funny... will do better next time

the title 'Hu Die' (butterfly) is from David's 'Black Tangerine' Album (I'm definately gonna get his 'Ultrasound' hit album) I really not impress with the tunes but after I read the translation in Eng.. I fell in love with the beautiful lyric.. how he manage to make it sound special.. I wonder >v<.. the song 'Hate the red Chamber' is also funny.. I never read the novel 'red chamber' before but I get some ideas about the concept of how naive people thought about love making.. or maybe I got it all wrong (might try to read it someday)

There are two versions of 'Hu Die' so I gonna put on both ^_^ as I like both!! haha

"Butterfly"

When this world decided to abandon me
Like a hurt soldier I was left in the wilderness
I started to question the meaning of existence
In other’s eyes I became invisible
Does losing once mean I will never win again
Who will come save my lost soul

Every time I see you my soul becomes tranquil
Like a butterfly flying over a wasteland
I can continue to live I found my courage again
Your love is like oxygen helping me breath
I can breath again I can breath again
You’re just not willing to give up

Life is filled with all kinds of problems
Like walking through a maze without an exit
Oh no Time and time again I use excuses to escape
How come you never give up on me
What did I do to earn and deserve your care
How come you answer to my every call

Every time I think about you
The clouds part and the sun shines
See a butterfly fly over the wasteland
It’s so beautiful almost like a miracle
Helps me stand up from where I fell Wooo…

When I get close to you I feel safe
Your eyes look into me with no suspicion
You trust for me lets me be reborn
It doesn’t matter how cold this world is
I have you who loves me I have you

Loving someone like me isn’t easy for you
You experience my pain with me You’re the only one
Like how the sky clears after a rainy day
See a butterfly fly over the wasteland
I can keep on going I will forget the past
You are the one who helped me find my new life
credit to: UT Longhorn

the 2nd version of
"BUTTERFLY"

When this world has already abandon me like an injured left behind in the wildness
I Start to question if my existence has a meaning
In other's eyes I seem to be invisible
Is it losing and you'll never balance back
Who will come and safe a trouble soul
Everytime I see you, My heart is very quiet
Like a butterfly flying though a waste land
I still can live, I still can find courage
Your love is the oxygen helping my breathe
I still can breathe I still can breathe
You are never willing to give up
Life is full of mess, seven eight bad questions, Like running in a puzzle without an exit
Oh no... Again and again only use excuses to escape
Why haven't you got completely over me
What do I have for you to value
Why are you doing everything as I wish
Everytime I think of you, it's like the sun after the rain
Seeing a butterfly flying though waste land Is very beautiful Like a miracle
Like my standing up when I fall down Woo...
Only get close to you To feel safe
You look into my eyes without questions
Your trust to me Like me living again
Don't care how cold the world is, I still have you I have you
Loving a person like me is not easy on you
My pain you have to experience
You the only one to accompany me to heavan and hell
Everytime I think of you is like the sun after rain
Seeing a butterfly flying though waste land
I can continue
I'll forget the past You make me find a new life yeah....
Everytime I think of you, My heart is full of thanks
Now I can face myself
I'll treasure it forever I'll love you forever
In my heart, no one can replace your position yeah
You're the only one
credits to: longfumoon (+reesa)

The first was more compose but the second was the first that touch me ^//^ confused? heheh

2.9.03

*rain & sun*

what happen to my Oe BBS?!! O_o'' it's gone! dead? I dunno >_< hope not...I just make a new pic last night... ::sniff sniff::

Anywho, I'm quite content today ^_^ so I gonna talk about 'Pirate of the Caribbean' (correct the spelling) I finally seen it... & Johnny Depp is so damn gay! ha ha that's what I expected ^v^ Orlando Bloom was cute as 'Will Turner' (like him more than when he play 'legolas' in LOTR) It was a fun show so I went to check for fanfiction @ fanfiction.net lots of cute WillxElizabeth ficcies ^v^ surprisingly for JackxAnnamaria (it quite fun too) I can't find any WillxJack one! (I'm not actually into Yaoi stuffs much but I like to read the couple too :P they are adorable!) if they'll be a good stories.. I'll tell u ok ^_^/

It was suppose to get cozy but the sun is out at noon & rain come out at night O_o'' a weird weather isn't it? I can't get home without getting wet... that's not good...>x<

1.9.03

*I can't smile without you*

I was suppose to start up with a cheerful story about me goin' out & see 'Pirate of the Carribean:curse of the black pearl' yesterday... but I got caught with another embarrassing moment again today.. so it's no fun at all >_<... /me being childing for another whole forsaken day...

I feel headache, I feel tiring... I can stand a whole bunch of work load but I just can't stand making another person feel disappointed in me... T-T if only she could understand me just abit... but I suppose my personality just gave way for another disappointment...

/me humming the tune of 'I can't smile without you'.... but it's too sad to cheer my tiring soul...

if I'm happy enough tomorrow.. I'll tell some good stuff about yesterday ok? [sorry I always break promises.. so don't expect too much]